F#@k the Highlight Reel! I’m Done!

I just can't, for the fucking life of me, pull my eyes away from everybody's happy highlight reels fast enough. As I watch the highlight reels roll by, I almost instantly start to feel like I am lagging behind. It used to be about seeing people who looked better, had better stuff and were better parents; comparing myself to them would cause me to spiral into a pit of self loathing. To combat that awfulness I...

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My Cup Is Just About Full…

...but not with what I need. This unscheduled post comes to you because...well... I needed a place to put these feelings and I knew you would understand. I am feeling all the feelings I think I can handle right now. As a burgeoning empath I often forget to protect myself from the negative and painful energy of others. I have gotten better at dismissing those that are blatantly negative...although I may sometimes still get pulled...

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Sometimes shit gets hard…

This week has been exceptionally informational...I realized that I am meant for great things, I am absolutely fearful that no matter what I do I will never have enough money and when your kid refuses to poo none of that matters. Because now my world is consumed by the fact that no matter what I do to encourage her to go, she may be traumatized for life. I am on the cusp of taking a huge leap in my life,...

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Have you given yourself permission to start?

When I started to really think about what I wanted to do with my creative life I used to get very overwhelmed by all the things I didn't know. Which was pretty much everything! I had no idea how to draw, how to use Instagram let alone manage multiple social media platforms simultaneously, how to paint, how to write, how to hand-letter or most importantly how take time for myself and listen to my heart....

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Welcome to the Party!!!

Today is...well it's pretty fucking awesome!!!! I am so amazed that this day is finally here... Website Launch Day!!! But before we get into that...indulge me as a take a minute as I just want, NEED, to start off with one of many necessary huge thank-yous...this is a big shout out to my friend and master web designer Leanne Kodsmann!!! Her friendship, support and supreme genius made today possible. I have no idea how to...

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Begin At The Beginning

As I sat there at 5:46 am enjoying my coffee I was utterly amazed. Even in my sleepy state, sitting by the dim lamplight of our sun-room, before the sun was up to do its job, I could tell, feel, that I was different. About a month prior I began a journey, ok that’s not entirely true I had been on this journey for years, but more recently, through a series of happenstance events I found myself reading a self-help book...

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Nice to Meet You

Every new mother would describe it differently, but it is a tale as old as time, a story, I feel, that when told can never be fully understood until lived. I found myself 1 year postpartum looking in the mirror and finding the reflection unrecognizable. There were glimpses, shapes, and shadows that triggered memories of who I once was, but that girl, the clean lines and a place for everything and everything in its place...

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My First of Many Parenting Mistakes…

What did I learn in the first few days as a new parent… ridiculous question... I learned nothing! Because learning requires thought and I was too f'n tired to think. I lived moment to moment, made decisions with my gut, took the well-meaning advice of others, tried different things (most didn't work), tried to follow lessons from a book (which almost ended my marriage), I cried (a LOT) and I drank a shit load of coffee but at no time would I say that anything...

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