Why I felt the most vulnerable right before I said no…

Okay here's the deal...starting something new, big, bold, tiny, monumental, life-changing, inconspicuous, heart-felt , values-driven...(pick a reason any reason) is scary as fuck. Because starting or more to the point, deciding to start, is required for shit to get better...and sometimes we decide that our fear of the unknown is greater than our desire for change... I say fuck that!!! Yes there will be some scary moments...and yes you will second-guess yourself...and yes people may...

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Elements of Authenticity. How I Started & Why I Continue

How the Elements of Authenticity actualized for me... When I first started out on this journey of self discovery, one of the most profound things that happened was that I literally burst out from behind the cinder-block wall that had me imprisoned within myself… safe… guarded… paralyzed. And there in the light of day, I realized that not only was I capable of much more than I knew, I wanted to do so much more...

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Being seen by everyone but me…

In my before life, I worked very hard to be who I thought I was supposed to be. The fact that I was being seen never even occurred to me. Recently I realized that I was so busy that I didn't notice my Self sneaking out in my unconscious behaviour; in my friendships, my work relationships, and in solitary acts I had no idea people took notice of. I would find myself amazed when someone really...

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I am a writer…I know that now

So I decided to step off the crazy train for a while and focus on something that brings me great joy. Writing. I have been thinking a lot about why I do what I do, what I want to stop doing, what I want to keep doing and what I want to make room for in my life and I was struck by a memory from 2.5 years ago. In the fall of 2014 I...

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Are you waiting for a shovel?

Today is Tuesday... I know that if you are reading this when I posted it...it's Thursday...and the cold/flu/sore throat demon has finally landed on me... The girls have been sick for awhile...and normally I can stave off their ick germs pretty well...not this time. And as I sit here and ponder the effectiveness of the human immune system I find myself reflecting to a conversation I had just yesterday with my friend Forrest. You see...

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Listen to the heart of an Empath

Voice of an Empath "We are not created or destroyed, ignored or acknowledged. We are present or absent. I am present. I'm here. I see you. I will wait for you." She is hurting and I can feel it. I can sense it through the distance between us. Like as if the air had carried her pain to me on the wisps of the wind. I gladly take it and hold it tight to my...

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When did that awesome shit happen?

Sometimes amazing shit happens without me even knowing it! At least that is what I think is happening to me. Before launching myself as an entrepreneur I had this idea that I needed to know exactly where I was going...you know law of attraction stuff...be specific, visualize what you want then manifest the shit out of it. And yet I had no real idea what "me as an entrepreneur" would look like. Sure I want clients...that...

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What I learned about being a girl friend…

Being a girl friend A new perspective on being a woman was shared with me recently. A young "man" who I have been working with, who happens to have started the amazing journey of transitioning into a woman, very happily shared a story with me about what it has been like in the early days of taking hormones. While beaming an ear to ear smile, she regaled me with a humorous tale about the devastation she...

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You are creative…remember!?!

I don't always know what to create. However I do know how I feel...Grateful. Grateful for the light bringers in my life who remind me to be...to be me, to be authentic, to be vulnerable, to be courageously afraid and encourage me to be a light bringer. I am so grateful for every moment I get to spend being happy and attribute that to my light bringers. Being in the state of joy brought about and enhanced by...

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How Art Works For Me

Every week I take the time to sit down to write and I am always heavily influenced by what is going on in my life. This week is not much different other than my world being slowed down by bacteria and much-needed rest. Along with fluids and movies I had the chance to showcase my art for the first time in real life. Since then I have been feeling inspired to share a little of...

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